I quit.

Yep I did. I quit walking and working out. After walking at least 4 days a week for 3+ miles, using my exercise ball, watching what I ate, and giving up Coke for almost 2 months and losing absolutely NO weight I just give up. I don't know what else to do. Maybe I'll go talk to my doctor and see if they will check my thyroid. Maybe they can give me something that is safe and will help me. Who knows. I'm very frustrated and depressed about this. That is never a good combination. *sigh*

So does anyone know of some weight loss pills that work?

Maybe I should have eaten something first

I took some Sudafed earlier today for this cold that I'm getting and I've been shaky all day. I had eaten some toast a little earlier, but that was all. When I started getting shaky I thought it was because I hadn't eaten in more than 6 hours. So, I ate. I'm still shaky. The only thing I can think that would cause it is the medicine. I hate this feeling. At least I can breathe and the sinus pressure is gone. LOL

Frustration

OMG!! What is it going to take? Since spring break I have been walking 3+ miles (in an hour) at least 4 days a week. I've changed my eating habits. I've even stopped drinking Coke. All this and I've lost absolutely NO weight!!! Talk about major frustration. I don't know what to do. Heck, I think I've even gained some weight. I don't want to take diet pills, but I'm thinking about trying Alli. I've heard good things about it.

Ugh!! My mom thinks I should get my thyroid checked. Could that be it? If so, is there something they can do to help me lose weight? I really really do not have a good self image right now. I'm hating the way I look. HELP!!!!!!!!

So I've been walking on the treadmill everyday.

I was going to do this really quietly, but you know me.......I can't keep anything to myself. LOL I've been trying to lose weight again. For the past 2 weeks I've been walking on the treadmill everyday. I walk on average three miles in about an hour. While I haven't noticed a difference in my body really, I have noticed that I feel much better. That is good, right? I was wondering though if I should be using the strength equipment that is in our gym? I haven't so far. Would it help in he weight loss goal? Is it really necessary? I have an exercise ball at home that I've been using too for my upper body. Just wondering if I should be doing more. Are there any personal trainers out there who would like to help me................for free? ;-)

What do you workout to?

What is on your iPod? I bet you can't guess in a million years what is on mine! LOL I've been walking on the treadmill to Bon Jovi (yeah bet you never guessed that!). I've found that it makes the time go by so much faster and easier. I like the faster rockin' songs to keep me going, but I like the slower ones too. I tend to kinda meditate through them and my heart rate goes down. It's a good combination. I just put my little Sony Walkman on the Jovi shuffle and take off. I'm loving it.

If anyone knows of or has a treadmill they want to get rid of (preferably for free) please let me know. I could use one.

I need some new shoes!

Yes I have more than any woman should right now in my closet, but I need more!! Standing on my feet all day teaching is killing my feet and legs. I wear tennis shoes most days because they are the most comfortable, but they don't always look good with whatever I'm wearing. I need something I can wear that looks good and is comfortable. I've been looking at the Dansko clogs. They don't look bad and they look like they would be comfortable. Do you have a favorite pair of very comfy shoes that don't leave your feet and legs tired after standing all day? If so, let me know.

I'm attempting it.............again.

Yep, once again I've decided to try and lose some weight and get into better shape. I started this week going to walk on the treadmill in the health center here at the apartment complex. I've been eating better this week and I've come off of Coke........cold turkey. That has been the hardest part so far. I'm having major headaches. So far I've only walked on the treadmill, but I think I may try the ellipticals tomorrow. It can't hurt to use more than one piece of equipment. The weather is getting nicer so I should be able to start walking outside after school soon. If not, I guess I can try to go to the health center after school with the kids. I just have to be sure to take plenty of toys to keep them busy and off of the equipment. I'll try it anyway. If it doesn't work I guess I'll just have to wait for days when Michael is off or the weather is good enough to walk outside. Wish me luck!!

Addicted

Yep, that's me. I am so addicted. As you know I just came back from a concert at the Mohegan Sun Casino on Monday. I spent the weekend in New England with my friend Lisa for the Bon Jovi concert. It was great......fabulous.......wonderful. Now, however, I am suffering from "Post Concert Depression" or PCD. It happens after every BJ concert I go to. This time it is worse though. It's a completely different experience going with someone who is just as crazy about them as you are. Don't get me wrong, I love going with my wonderful husband, but I tend to hold a tighter reign on my emotions. With another addict I don't feel like I have to do that. Now the PCD is worse. I'm addicted. I'm afraid this time I may need some sort of addiction treatment. *sigh*

Well I'm feeling better so far today....

I've pumped myself full of Vitamin C and Airborne. I am refusing to let this thing get to me. I've got too much going on. Michael, however, is not winning his battle. He didn't feel well last night and he woke up this morning with a fever. I've given him medicine and sent him back to bed. I imagine he is going to go to work regardless of how he feels, but all he is going to do is be miserable and spread the flu. I can almost guarantee that is what he has. I mean after both kids were sick with it. Ya know.

No! No! No! No! No!

Back hurts.
Head hurts.
Throat hurts.
Stuffy nose.
Itchy eyes.
No fever (That's good.........right?)

I CANNOT be getting sick. I don't need to miss anymore days of work AND I'm only 10 days from flying to Boston to see Bon Jovi. I refuse to be getting sick!! Denial will keep me well. I'm sure of it.

Did I find a solution?

As you know, I've been struggling with my children and getting them to eat anything remotely good for them. Heck, getting them to eat anything period. Well, I went out and bought a book. The Sneaky Chef by Missy Chase Lapine. I made up some purees and breading earlier today and tried my first recipe tonight. I made crispy chicken strips and macaroni & cheese. Both had pureed veggies in them and both were a hit!! Ari ate the strips without comment. She doesn't eat mac & cheese though so she didn't try that one. Joshua ate strips (this was a fight, but only because he didn't want chicken) and the mac & cheese without comment. I was most worried about the macaroni & cheese with the pureed veggies. I just knew that my pickiest eater was going to taste the difference. I didn't make it homemade tonight, but out of a box. I put in the puree and I added some extra shredded cheese (as advised in the book) to help cover the taste of the veggies. Well, apparently it worked. Joshua ate all of it. I tasted the mac & cheese and you really couldn't taste a difference. I ate the chicken strips myself and they were pretty good.

I'm very excited! Granted this is just two recipes, but they worked! My kids ate their normal dinner, but this time they had veggies too and didn't even know it! I'll definitely be trying other recipes out of this book. I'll let y'all know how they work!

I think I'm going to try to make some fruit popsicles tomorrow. I bought frozen blueberries, strawberries, and cherries yesterday and I'm going to make the juice from them then put them in some molds. Much healthier than the popsicles that my kids eat every night after dinner.

I'm worried about my kids

They are just not eating. It's a struggle every night to get them to eat even a little bit. Even their favorites. I've tried to get them to at least drink some V-8 (the strawberry and kiwi kind), but it's not a favorite. Ari will drink small amounts and Joshua just flat out refuses to drink it. Joshua has me the most worried at the moment. He lost 6 pounds in about a month and he has dark circles under his eyes. This really really bothers me. What can I do to get them to eat? I've tried the whole cook and let them eat or not. They are more stubborn than me apparently. They refused to eat and I couldn't do it for more than a couple days. I just couldn't. Any thoughts or advice? Please? My kids need to eat!!!

Hello from the land of sinus infections

Ugh! It feels like I've been sick for forever. I went to the doctor on Monday to find out that I have a sinus infection. They put me on antibiotics and told me to take some Mucinex D and use saline spray. I did all that and I still did not get better. So, I went back to the doctor today. The gave me 2 shots (yeah that went over real well with the needle phobe!!). One was an antibiotic shot to boost the pills I've been taking and the other was a steroid shot. Ummm, can I just say that those hurt like a bitch!! It hurt going in and it still hurts almost 12 hours later. They also increased my oral antibiotics to 3 a day instead of 2. I have to admit that I am feeling somewhat better now. I can breathe a whole lot better already. We'll see how I do when I go to bed though. That is the true test.

Oh and not only do I have a sinus infection, but because of the antibiotics (I'm sure the women out there know where I'm going here and guys...........get ready for some TMI) I also have a yeast infection. Double ugh!!! Luckily the doctor had something for that too. I just hope that it starts working soon. These infections are incredibly annoying and it is driving me nuts at the moment.

This one will embarrass the kid one day! LOL

I swear we have the worst poop problems with the 4 year old. For some reason he hates to go poop. It is a fight every night. If I do let him off the potty without going the next day is just torture. He doesn't eat right anyway and definitely doesn't get enough fiber so sometimes it is difficult when he goes regularly, but if he misses just one then it is hell. It is driving me nuts!! Why is it so difficult to get him to go? Anyone else have this problem with their little ones? What did you do to make it easier for them? I would hate to think that he would need a colon cleanse before he is 10 years old. LOL

A new year is about to begin.

Another year to reach those goals. I seem to make this goal for myself every year, but I inevitability fail. I'm not sure why though. I have such good intentions. It is incredibly frustrating. I'm going to try it again in 2008 even if I do fail. I hate to keep trying. I do not like the way I look. My weight is a major issue for me. I've tried diet pills and they usually don't work. I've heard some good things about hoodia, but I don't think I'm going to use anything like that. I think I'm going to go on the diabetic diet my OB put me on when I was pregnant with the kids (I had gestational diabetes with both). I lost weight in the beginning of my pregnancies so I'll try that first. I wish I had some kind of treadmill at home though. That would make things a little easier. *sigh*

So, wish me luck!!

Okay, I need to get serious!

Yes, I realize that I say this often and then nothing really happens/changes. LOL I really do NEED to get serious about this weight loss thing though. I would love to have a treadmill or one of those ellipticals at home. It would be so much easier to use one at home rather than find child care to do it someplace else. With Michael working second shift he isn't home to keep them when I could actually find the time to go out. If I had one at home, I could set it in the living room so I could watch TV while I worked out. The kids could play in their rooms and with it sitting right there I would be guilted into doing it even if I didn't feel like it. LOL

I hate being sick!

Ugh!! One thing about being a teacher is that I am constantly exposed to sickness. And teaching kindergarten makes it worse. These little guys are so loving and are always giving me hugs. I try to have them wash their hands often. It just isn't enough. I have a nasty cold. I keep pumping myself with drugs to make me feel better. I've taken so many different things so far and nothing is working. If I'm not careful I'll have to check myself into a drug rehab program. LOL

Exercise. I need exercise!!

I have started this so many times that I've lost count. I always start out great and then something happens. I get a cold or I hurt something or my knee starts acting up. I have to take a break and then getting started again is so difficult. Not only that, but finding the time to go do it at a gym or someplace is pretty much out. Michael works second shift so he isn't home in the evenings so I can get out. I can't take the kids with me. I cannot get into doing videos alone. I think I need to invest in a treadmill. I don't mind walking on a treadmill. I like to walk and I could even continue to do it when the weather was bad. Now if I only had the space in my house for one. *sigh*

Did I mention?

I don't think I blogged about the hell that Michael and I have gone through this past week with both kids having Hand Foot and Mouth Disease. HFM is by far the worst thing I have dealt with since becoming a parent. They get blisters on the inside of their mouths, on their hands, on their feet, and sometimes around their nether regions. It is incredibly painful. They can't eat (like my kids can afford to not eat for long periods of time...........they already don't eat much). The doctor prescribed hydrocodone for the pain. Yeah, that was my thought too. That is some major pain medicine for a 2 and 4 year old. I was really nervous about giving it to them since I am allergic to codeine myself. I gave it to them a couple of times. Ari had me cracking up when she had it. She got the giggles and was just giggling at every single thing. I couldn't stop laughing myself. I felt like a bad mommy. LOL Anyway, they are finally feeling better. Today was the first day that they were both back at school. HFM can last from 7-10 days. Michael is happy they are back so he can get some sleep now. LOL Can't say that I blame him much.

One good thing did come out of this whole horrible sickness. We are now paci free!!! Yep, her mouth hurt too much to take her paci for several days and she just hasn't asked for it since. I'm not offering either. It's not how I would have wanted to become paci free, but at least it is done.

Migraines

Do you suffer from them? I get them, but not very often. They have been known to last for an entire week though. I got my first one at 14 years old. It was massive. I missed an entire week of school and the doctor gave me 2 prescriptions, some samples he had in his office, and a shot. Even with all that it lasted the entire week. I've only had one other one that bad and that was when I was 17 and we had just moved to Florida. Now I get them about every couple months or so, but not that bad. I try to catch it early so it doesn't get bad. I usually succeed.

I have a cousin who gets really really bad ones at least once a week. She is miserable. So far she hasn't been able to find anything that works for her. Her next option is to try Botox for migraines. I just hope it works for her. I know that I couldn't handle having migraines at least once a week.