Thursday, March 23, 2006


I've been sitting at my computer tonight going to my regular websites and all of a sudden I'm blindsided with memories. These memories have nothing to do with anything that I am doing at the moment. I wonder what triggers them sometimes. I've been sitting here for awhile now thinking about my grandparents. I miss them so much and it makes me so sad that my children will never know them. They were wonderful people. It's funny how one memory will lead to another and another and another. They are all great memories, but they make me a little sad. I just wish I could hug them and tell them how much I love them and how much I miss them. People say that it gets easier with time when you lose someone you love, but some days it really isn't all that easy. They have both been gone for many years now and it still hurts. I was very close to them. They were my stability when I was growing up and I don't know if they ever knew how much that meant to me. How much that helped me get through some very tough times.

I'm remembering sitting underneath a quilting frame learning how to hand sew a quilt from Ma. I can remember always wanting to go everywhere Pa went even getting mad when he left without me. I would make him take me somewhere as soon as he got back if he left me behind. I remember sitting on the kitchen counter watching Ma cook and learning her secrets. I remember sitting on their front porch shelling butter beans and peas in the summertime. There are so many more. I could fill pages upon pages with my memories. Most days they make me smile and they do tonight too, but they are also making me cry tonight.

Ma and Pa I love you both so much and I miss you tremendously.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Had a cute conversation with a 2 year old today.

Joshua: Momma, why you go this way?
Me: I have to get my medicine so I can feel better.
Joshua: Okay, let's go (we are stopped at a red light)
Me: We can't go the light is red. We can go when the light turns green.
Joshua: I like green.
Me: Me too, that is my favorite color.
Joshua: My favorite color is black.
Me: Really? Mommy likes red and black together.
Joshua: Joshua just likes black. Mommy, the light is green let's go.

It is so hard to believe that I can have an actual conversation with him now. It's amazing how much they learn in just 2 years.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Just shoot me now...............please!!

I am so sick of being sick. I swear that since Christmas someone in my house has been sick. I haven't gotten completely over whatever it was that I had and it has settled in my head (no cute comments here!). I CAN'T BREATHE!!!! It is driving me nuts. I think it may have turned into a sinus infection. I know, I need to go to the doctor. I tried. The place I can go for free through our insurance at work only had morning appointments last week as opposed to their regular afternoon appointments. Of course this happens when I need them. I am making an appointment for tomorrow afternoon. This has to end. I'm tired of not being able to breathe.

Oh yeah, now Ari has a runny nose again. Joshua was complaining that his stomach hurts and he has a slight cough. Spring needs to get here quickly so we can get well at my house.

On a better note.........................only 5 more days of waking up at 5 am and I am on Spring Break!! I have 2 whole weeks of being home with my kids and going to see Mom in Florida. I hope the weather is nice. I will be busy at home though. We are putting the house on the market so I have to start boxing stuff up so it can be presentable for showing. It is going to be difficult keeping it presentable with 2 kids, a husband, and a dog. I'm ready to get it going though and get moved closer to work. The 40 minute drive every morning is wearing on me. I hate having to get the kids up so early and rushing to get out of the house on time. I just hope this house sells quickly and we find something we like just as quickly. So, if you have time say a quick prayer that things work out timewise for us.