Memories

I've been sitting at my computer tonight going to my regular websites and all of a sudden I'm blindsided with memories. These memories have nothing to do with anything that I am doing at the moment. I wonder what triggers them sometimes. I've been sitting here for awhile now thinking about my grandparents. I miss them so much and it makes me so sad that my children will never know them. They were wonderful people. It's funny how one memory will lead to another and another and another. They are all great memories, but they make me a little sad. I just wish I could hug them and tell them how much I love them and how much I miss them. People say that it gets easier with time when you lose someone you love, but some days it really isn't all that easy. They have both been gone for many years now and it still hurts. I was very close to them. They were my stability when I was growing up and I don't know if they ever knew how much that meant to me. How much that helped me get through some very tough times.

I'm remembering sitting underneath a quilting frame learning how to hand sew a quilt from Ma. I can remember always wanting to go everywhere Pa went even getting mad when he left without me. I would make him take me somewhere as soon as he got back if he left me behind. I remember sitting on the kitchen counter watching Ma cook and learning her secrets. I remember sitting on their front porch shelling butter beans and peas in the summertime. There are so many more. I could fill pages upon pages with my memories. Most days they make me smile and they do tonight too, but they are also making me cry tonight.

Ma and Pa I love you both so much and I miss you tremendously.